S P A C E- WTH will go wrong with that?
Everything. Call me insane, again, but everything will go wrong. What im talking about is in relationship.
Let me tell u story, and this is from my side.
A man and a women, will fall in love. They'll pledge to be on their best behavior and effort for each other. Think about it, we all got our own time, and our own life journey that we have to go through before we got here. To where exactly we are standing.
So everyone got their own reasons, and experiences.
What i can say is, giving out too much spaces, u will end up down in the drain. Yes, not meeting each other or hanging out everyday might do u good. But, too much of them will hurt ur relationship.
Its not right to judge people by their mistakes and bad behavior, worst if u do comparisons.
I tend to be quiet all the time and not compare people, but when i do, ill try my best not to say it out loud.
Because i know, im not perfect myself and all these times, for 23 years, ive been given enough space in my life to suffer or to learn the hard truth about life lessons by my parents.
SO thats why im afraid of spaces. U see, when u give out too much spaces, they will be expert at something. Covering things up, Comparing you to someone else, Sneaking around your back, etcs..
Why cant i just find something else to do? I couldnt.
Should i not go and talk to a guy when my loved one is twitting with other girls? Bhahaha am i jelous of twitter? No im not, im just seeing things differently. Im not saying im trying to complain, but, if it does, well, its gonna sound stupid, i know.
U see, im giving out spaces. Im trying to give myself some space as well.
Its not revenge, its a fair trade. If u can compare, so do i. Well i live long enough to understand people.
SPACE is important, but the more u acknowledge them, u gonna drift far far away.
Lets not say that.
Lets say, SPACE will do us good. Yes, i can deal with that, but im not gonna be all quiet.
Coz space, for me, somehow, will either be the best decision u'll ever make, or the worst.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Friday, January 4, 2013
23
Age.
Matters. A lot. While most of the girls are starting to think they should settle down, get married, have kids, me on other hands, NO.
I wanna learn. And learn more about life, about creating my path, about crafting my future,first, then i would think to settle down.
Why bother to get married when u have absolutely no idea of how hard it will be outside?
Its a fierce world, the least person u may think would be there to hold out a knife down your throat and boom- u're dead.
Im not saying i had a lot of experience, but i think its enough, all right.
I had those moment; The One Moment: the moment where u think u've met ur Mr Right Guy, the Im-Gonna-Kill-Myself Moment where everything crumbles in ur life and u felt like nothing's working so its better to die, the Pathetic Moment where u just wanna crawl up to ur bed and snuggle to sniff ur best blanket and cry all night, the Im a Star moment where u feel like u r making a change, or a sudden impact to someone's life by doing something and etc..
But why settle down now?
Afraid of getting hurt i think may b one of the answer.
Vicious land. But with a twist. Everyone seems nice. Everyone seems happy, except u.
WRONG.
Everyone's unhappy about something all the time. The sweetest girl might kept some skeleton in the closet. The most vicious looking man might just be a very good guy.
People struggle to keep up with expectation their whole life.
I do too. A lot.
So, lets just give our poor heart a rest, and think before leaping into something that is so huge.
After all, age is just a number.
But, the way u see ur life, well, that counts.
Just saying~
Matters. A lot. While most of the girls are starting to think they should settle down, get married, have kids, me on other hands, NO.
I wanna learn. And learn more about life, about creating my path, about crafting my future,first, then i would think to settle down.
Why bother to get married when u have absolutely no idea of how hard it will be outside?
Its a fierce world, the least person u may think would be there to hold out a knife down your throat and boom- u're dead.
Im not saying i had a lot of experience, but i think its enough, all right.
I had those moment; The One Moment: the moment where u think u've met ur Mr Right Guy, the Im-Gonna-Kill-Myself Moment where everything crumbles in ur life and u felt like nothing's working so its better to die, the Pathetic Moment where u just wanna crawl up to ur bed and snuggle to sniff ur best blanket and cry all night, the Im a Star moment where u feel like u r making a change, or a sudden impact to someone's life by doing something and etc..
But why settle down now?
Afraid of getting hurt i think may b one of the answer.
Vicious land. But with a twist. Everyone seems nice. Everyone seems happy, except u.
WRONG.
Everyone's unhappy about something all the time. The sweetest girl might kept some skeleton in the closet. The most vicious looking man might just be a very good guy.
People struggle to keep up with expectation their whole life.
I do too. A lot.
So, lets just give our poor heart a rest, and think before leaping into something that is so huge.
After all, age is just a number.
But, the way u see ur life, well, that counts.
Just saying~
Hope
Its 2013 *wohoo* fireworks and parties!
No, not me. i stayed away from public places that time. Long story. Anyway,
Why?
Why should we put new goals?
So we can have a check-list of what we want in our new year?
So we can tell people what we wish we would have, or own?
So we can look back to last year and say,"Maybe this year, im gonna.."
Its something personal. Its something that we hope we would be able to do.
SO its kinda awesome in a way, it might works for someone.
But apparently not ME.
U see, Im done hoping. Im DONE.
Because when u hope, u r going to expect.
When u expect, u r going to push everything into that road.
And then, u gonna hurt people.
Call me insane, but everyone is a bitch to another's hope.
Its true, unless u r very inhuman like, i mean, envy, desperate, name-calling..etc etc..
Everyone had came across these feelings.
Even cats felt jealous.
SO why bother?
Hoping to get a new relationship that gonna lasts forever, and Hope he'll understand u and vice versa.
That wouldn't work.
New Gadgets and Cars, then when another year come around, u will buy a new one.
Why?
Why now?
U can always dream, not only in New Year.
U can always expect flowers from ur loved ones, not only Valentine's Day.
Why not?
Because people are going through in a circle, thats why.
They already plan a year ahead of their lives, pre-judging everything in between, and expecting some problems to came up. SO when the time really came, if there's no problem, u gonna create one to full fill ur expectations.
Why not stop when u can and avoid everything?
Why u wanna dwell instead on fixing things?
So lets not be a robot, a robot of the future, where everything is in ur fingertips. And conversation turns awkward. And talking about this lifestyle may trigger some hipster's heart or what-so-ever. Be original.
Because, unless u did, life will bite u in the butt, like a juicy Carl's Jr Burger.
No, not me. i stayed away from public places that time. Long story. Anyway,
New Year : New Goals.
Why?
Why should we put new goals?
So we can have a check-list of what we want in our new year?
So we can tell people what we wish we would have, or own?
So we can look back to last year and say,"Maybe this year, im gonna.."
Its something personal. Its something that we hope we would be able to do.
SO its kinda awesome in a way, it might works for someone.
But apparently not ME.
U see, Im done hoping. Im DONE.
Because when u hope, u r going to expect.
When u expect, u r going to push everything into that road.
And then, u gonna hurt people.
Call me insane, but everyone is a bitch to another's hope.
Its true, unless u r very inhuman like, i mean, envy, desperate, name-calling..etc etc..
Everyone had came across these feelings.
Even cats felt jealous.
SO why bother?
Hoping to get a new relationship that gonna lasts forever, and Hope he'll understand u and vice versa.
That wouldn't work.
New Gadgets and Cars, then when another year come around, u will buy a new one.
Why?
Why now?
U can always dream, not only in New Year.
U can always expect flowers from ur loved ones, not only Valentine's Day.
Why not?
Because people are going through in a circle, thats why.
They already plan a year ahead of their lives, pre-judging everything in between, and expecting some problems to came up. SO when the time really came, if there's no problem, u gonna create one to full fill ur expectations.
Why not stop when u can and avoid everything?
Why u wanna dwell instead on fixing things?
So lets not be a robot, a robot of the future, where everything is in ur fingertips. And conversation turns awkward. And talking about this lifestyle may trigger some hipster's heart or what-so-ever. Be original.
Because, unless u did, life will bite u in the butt, like a juicy Carl's Jr Burger.
Feels.
That moment.
"Penguin"- Christina Perri
"Somewhere Only We Know"- Keane
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
"Wonderwall"- Oasis
Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do, about you now
And all the roads that lead you there are winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that IWould like to say to you but I don't know how.
When u drive around in ur car, tears streaming out, or when u had a good day, and suddenly, the radio play songs that describe ur mood. When u r crying, out of no where, sad songs stream like they know ur heart is gonna bleed out, literally. Or when u had a good day, and the songs will be chirpy and catchy, makes u wanna fly into the sky and lay on the bed of clouds. Well, im not exactly am driving now, and not in my car. But if i had to sum up, the best songs, some of them, to what im feeling now, its:
"Penguin"- Christina Perri
Can you find the time
to let your lover love you
He only wants to show you
The things he wants to learn too
The hardest parts you'll get through
And in the end you'll have your best friend
Can you find the time to let your lover hold you
He needs somebody to hold to
His love is strong and so true
His arrows aiming for you
And he's the one that you were born to love
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
to let your lover love you
He only wants to show you
The things he wants to learn too
The hardest parts you'll get through
And in the end you'll have your best friend
Can you find the time to let your lover hold you
He needs somebody to hold to
His love is strong and so true
His arrows aiming for you
And he's the one that you were born to love
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
Let go
Let go
of time for you
and I
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
"Wonderwall"- Oasis
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do, about you now
And all the roads that lead you there are winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that IWould like to say to you but I don't know how.
Thats what i wanna hear now. Over and over again.
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